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Despite grim expectations, this has turned out to be an amazing summer. True, I could have used more time with my chs and ss friends, but I had my lovely nadine and becky so much of the time, and then gylc...how is it possible that so many amazing people could be at one place at one time? I miss them so much...oh team brazil, every email I get from one of them makes me laugh or cry...
There have been so many goodbyes this summer. It sucks. it makes me dread next year when I'll be leaving. First Nadine, then the GYLCers (I became closer with them than I am with most of my friends, so it was pretty much unbearable and still is), and now becky. I didnt even get to say goodbye to andrew. I often say it would be better not the form attachments in order to avoid these things...that friends aren't worth it. I realize that's totally wrong, all of the friends who I'm now grieving over were worth it, even if i never see them again. I learned so much from them and we had so many good times. what a pointless entry, but hey, better than summer work.
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[21 Jul 2006|12:03am] |
Finally the hot guy in the harrisburg office comes to philly and they send me to a different department. just my luck. so hot. I want him.
I've been so numb towards negative things I've had to deal with recently. Positive things, too. I think it's a good feeling, but I'm pretty numb so I can't tell. The only things I'm passionate about are things that happen in the rest of the world, not to me. I think it's better this way. I can't be disappointed and I'm preparing myself. Maybe I'm not experiencing life the way movies think I should, but I can't see how it really matters anyway as long as I'm functioning and have interests still. But I haven't cried in a very long time. So I think it's a good thing. And I still laugh and have fun but without the caring part. it's pretty good. It's shallow I guess, but who ever had the right to say that's a bad thing?
I hate the R1. too many fucking suitcases. now THAT is one thing about which i am passionate. That and world affairs. but not me. it's awesome. especially because I don't think I like me but I'm pretty numb towards myself so it doesn't matter. It's weird because for a while I was painfully lonely, but now I'm just emotionless. maybe it's because I really don't need anything now that becky and nadine are home. or maybe my observations of strangers, who never let me down, have taught me to be numb towards people and myself and important things.
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[09 Jul 2006|09:45pm] |
I always have bad dreams at my grandmother's house. Last weekend a had one in which my dad died and another in which amy s died. Last night I had a dream that my dad and I were suicide bombers who were working with al-qaeda to blow up liberty place. We both chickened out, though. My dad and I are the worst terrorists ever.
SPEAKING OF LIBERTY PLACE my lunch hour is so lonely. I feel like "Streets of Philadelphia" by Bruce Springsteen is always playing as the soundtrack to my life at work. Someone visit because arsenic is looking like a pretty good lunch right now. some annoying stuff I won't get into happened at work and I'm dreading my return tomorrow. And I don't get paid.
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| why doesnt anybody stay in one place anymore? |
[20 Jun 2006|05:01pm] |
I cant believe how many people are leaving this week and next week. I also cant believe my apostrophe doesnt work. If you leave me addresses, I will write letters. Ill have a lot of time during my lunch hour since everyone will be away and no one will be able to visit :(. At least nadine and I have a pretty awesome list of things to do this summer. If youre going to be around, dont be a stranger! Summer is for friends!
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| why the fuck is the prom video on again? |
[20 Jun 2006|12:00am] |
I want to hang out with new people AND old people together. Like, not 94-year-olds and 3-year-olds. That's not what I mean. I mean like that time I went to a movie with nadine AND griffin. making new friends is the shit, so someone please show up at my house with a random friend I don't really know so i can do that, k? thanks
nadine and i went to chris' jazz cafe tonight. it was pretty sweet. we always have fun together. We could have fun in a dunghill. or even a prison camp. Summer rocks. I'm even a little excited to start my internship, even though I'll be inside from 9-5. visit for lunch, please? thanks.
ok, so let's hang out.
wow, I won't be showing up randomly at amy's any time soon. every time I remember she is leaving it's like I'm being punched in the face. hopefully that kind of pain builds character.
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| JUNE 19th! |
[19 Jun 2006|01:42am] |
so, does anyone want to, you know, chillax with me tomorrow (actually later today I guess)? I might go to the library so i don't have to buy the Times. They have a smashing bathroom there. maybe someone wants to go to lunch or something? make out? I love summer, gang, I really do. It's a shame there isn't jazz camp this summer. or Europe. but there IS the LIBRARY! and it's FREE!
A few weeks ago, I asked some Georgetown rep about living with the Jesuits and how many there are per building and she seemed to think it was a weird question. but I don't see why. I don't want to, you know, have a towel on my door and have some jesuit give me awkward sinner stares. they seemed like pretty chill people, though. and I will probably be greatly disappointed and remain a virgin for much of college.
I'm so glad I have feet. and legs. they make summer a billion times better. I'm also glad I don't have cholera. or malaria. no malaria, but I got valeria!
I want to go fishing, but since I don't like actually killing fish, I just want to sit there with an unbaited hook. that would be sweet.
So tomorrow?
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| not to bring up selfish people again, but... |
[18 Jun 2006|11:57pm] |
Selfish people should not be diplomats. That is the problem with modern diplomacy. What happened to compromise? And now, because of jingoism and national selfishness, everything the creators of the UN worked for is going to be destroyed. great going. there are countries that count on that out there. what about them? they are full of people, too, so why are they less important? We have the power to make the UN work. but of course, that would be compromise, and, oh no, the US, Japan, etc., can't compromise- they are too good for compromise. What about Nepal? Nepal is counting on the UN now to help it work out over a decade of problems. Disputing groups have REQUESTED it. And what if there is no UN? what about the innocent people there? they will have to witness more violence than they need to. More civilians will be killed. Requests for help will fall on even deafer ears (well, I guess "deaf" can't be "deafer"). And that's only one example.
Is what I want to do with the rest of my life a big joke to these powerful countries now? They don't care about each other unless it's for their own gain. uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugh I'm really pissed. Why the fuck are the American people any better than the people in nations that ask for help from the UN. they aren't! fuck, so much potential is going to waste. fucking bullies.
Also, I hate when a girl looks at another girl who isn't emaciated and says she is fat. I hear it all the time. Maybe if girls didn't call each other fat and didn't expect each other to be extremely skinny and recognized the ridiculous expectations that we all face more often, more guys and our society in general would begin to change its expectations.
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[18 Jun 2006|10:49am] |
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I just thought everyone should know that I babysat for the kid from the Sealy commercials last night. Seriously, I was chasing after him trying to make him go to bed, and he tripped and fell and instantly fell asleep, snoring and everything. It was the most amazing thing I'd ever seen. He also looked exactly like a miniature Ike Shore.
Picnics are the shit, as valeria and I so aptly proved yesterday.
The United States government has gotten too big for its britches and has forgotten the value of diplomacy. It just thinks diplomacy is a means through which the United States can flex its muscles and dominate the rest of the world. the douchebag of diplomacy.
"I wonder if Mom ever wishes she had normal children." -Becky
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[14 Jun 2006|12:13am] |
Does anyone want to do community service with me this summer? I tried to do stuff with Philadelphia Cares last year and they told me I couldn't for some reason, so I just want to get a group together and start volunteering at different places by ourselves.
Today was final assembly. It was, as usual, entirely too long. I got two book awards, which shouldn't be allowed and is really not fair at all, and the community service award. I was really happy about the community service award. Only one person gets it and that's the thing I care most about at school. I still think book awards are jokes. I got two books about two schools I'm not even applying to. Two pompous schools at that. But at least the Princeton guy was a cute old man who made a private joke to me when he gave me my book. I don't mean to be unappreciative, but I know there are girls who didn't get book awards who should have.
I hate awards ceremonies. It's uncomfortable and makes people competitive. I wish grades were secret, too.
PICNIC SATURDAY! Ogontz, 11 am
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| PICNIC |
[11 Jun 2006|06:37pm] |
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So on saturday valeria and I will be hosting our second annual picnic at Ogontz! Anyone can come, so bring friends...and bring food, too. More obnoxious posts to come.
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[06 Jun 2006|04:29pm] |
Today was probably the last time I'll see Andrew before next year. I'm glad it was when I looked over and saw him fuming with anger over the euro exam. He may be the most amusing person I know.
FAKE PROM
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| ah, friends |
[05 Jun 2006|09:18pm] |
There is nothing like forgetting to put up an away message to remind you how popular you are. or how big of a "terd" you are, depending on who talks to you.
by the way, FAKE PROM!
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| OPA! |
[25 May 2006|04:43pm] |
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When should I go to opa?
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| SPECIAL ANNOUNCEMENT |
[21 May 2006|11:41pm] |
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Let me take a minute out of my massive amounts of homework to say that
I LOVE NADINE SMITH
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[19 May 2006|01:17am] |
Hey it's Becky again raiding Rach's journal, with her permission, of course.
I need some definite teenage representation in the audience of my reading on Sunday at 2PM at 1123 Ashbourne Road. Seriously, it is LACKING. So PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE try to come.
Also, this is serving as a reminder to Sophie about it. But obviously don't think about this till after EST...
So come guys. AND BRING FRIENDS.
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[08 May 2006|01:11pm] |
This is Becky taking over Rachael's journal so I can publicize this event as much as possible.
"SON OF JUDAS" reading: Sunday, May 21 at 2PM
Where?: 1123 Ashbourne Road
Why?: Because you should trust what Valeria thinks, and she claims it is worth your time. And because there will be free food.
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[01 Apr 2006|05:07pm] |
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If you went to springside school, what would you want in your community service board president?
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| This is what I do when I should be writing a speech |
[29 Mar 2006|03:12pm] |
I just made went to Washington DC to visit schools, so I'm making list of why that would be a cool place to go to school:
1. Rallies. There are ALWAYS rallies in front of the white house. I could participate in them every week!
2. Department of States- an awesome place for an international affairs major
3. Embassies. Nothing is cooler than an ambassador.
4. 20ish men in suits- obnoxious yuppies or sexy young men ready to bang an eager student?
5. wouldn't it be awesome to be there for the 2008 election?
6. Yellow buildings
7. Another chance to solidify my role as Maria's hero.
8. Isaac Rosen- coolest tour guide ever
9. internships at the white house just like Monica Lewinsky
10. So many people from all over the world live there
11. people there are more aware of what is going on in the world (even if they choose to ignore it)
12. The coffee shop on GW's campus that has, like, 15 kinds of chai.
13. A hell of a lot of museums- good for research and leisure.
14. Crosswalks that count down for pedestrians
15. really awesome speakers, such as ambassadors
there are lots of other reasons, too. and reasons why it would suck. One reason is that it's even farther from becky.
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| "That was me before life beat me down" |
[28 Mar 2006|09:24pm] |
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Next time I think I'll write this in Carrie Bradshaw style. Mostly for my own amusement. Rasberry chai is delicious.
I knew things never worked out for me when it came to boys and friends and anything not academic, but I could always count on academic things to work out. No more. This has been the year of disillusionment, I guess. Or maybe just the year of shittyness. I would be lying if I said I wasn't really upset. I tried to prepare for this, but I've been dreaming about it since 8th grade. Shows how much good dreams are.
Apparently I yelled at my dad for coughing in my sleep. I feel kind of bad. I also feel kind of bad because he came on those long, walking college tours only a couple hours after radiation.
Summer is mostly free now. I'm so glad I'm doing the thing ms. collett nominated me for- you learn all the diplomatic skills you learn at gov. school except you do it with students from all over the world and in Washington, where you have the Department of States among other things, and New York, in the UN building. Don't get a language, though :(. Maybe I'll volunteer in Cameroon? Or work at the shore? I'm trying not to stay here because that will be depressing.
This morning at least was good. George Washington University is awesome. Awesomer than Georgetown.
The hotness of guys at college visits is overwhelming and distracting. Columbia guys are the hottest guys in the world. Enough to be the deciding factor? I think maybe.
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| "Am I the only one who isn't about to cream my pants?" |
[22 Mar 2006|04:55pm] |
I love how it was the same temperature on the last day before winter break as it is on the last day before spring break. But who gives a shit- it's SPRING BREAK! today was a pretty awesome day- no jury in chambers (and we got to do "Time After Time" the whole time), hardly any chem, awesome Charlie Chaplin movie in English. The best part of the day, though, was looking through my Kama Sutra book in Pete's closet and listening to Pete's commentary.
Next week sometime I think I'm going to hop on a train without checking to see where it's going and just see where it takes me. THis weekend I'm living with BECKY. I should probably go make up another joke for ian and albert since they liked my old one so much...
Is anyone going to Paisley haze thursday? I might be going with a friend, but it would be nice to ride the train with other people, too.
Note for John Bowman: I'm bringing your bullets and putting them in your door during the day tomorrow if that's ok. they will be in an envelope.
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